the other woman's journal.

tomata @ 2007-05-06T03:44:00

2007-05-06T07:44:49Z

i hear this dude cumpig is looking for some friends. he might add you in the near future - you should add him back. he seems pretty nice.

tomata @ 2007-05-06T01:32:00

2007-05-06T05:32:49Z

tomata @ 2007-05-05T02:35:00

2007-05-05T06:35:33Z

some of the best big scale stencil work i've ever seen. i like banksy, and he gets up in the hardest spots - but this person is clearly superior in terms of characteristic style.

tomata @ 2007-05-04T19:48:00

2007-05-04T23:48:57Z

i started reading order of the phoenix over this afternoon. then, after seeing ed, i ran into lisa outside the smoke shop while my mom was in buying cigarettes. i wasn't sure it was her, and i didn't want things to be awkward, so i sort of just looked at my hands and i don't think she saw that i saw her. but it was weird, and i wish i could have said something. i just don't know what to say in those situations. it is a shame, because she was my best friend in middle school. i don't know why i can't bring myself to talk to her.

"i saw lisa today / but we didn't say hello to each other / we're all moving pretty fast these days / bumpin' around like bumper cars."

ugh.

eyeball skeleton is awesomes....

2007-05-04T05:43:05Z

this afternoon when i was on my way to finals this drunk guy got on the bus and was actin a fool, as niki might say. he asked some guy what time it was in a really belligerent way, and the guy was like BUS DRIVER - TELL THIS GUY TO SHUT THE FUCK UP! that was pretty funny. then the bus driver was all IT IS 4:15 - but he said it in a way that was like wtf are you doing drunk at 4:15 on my bus? so the dude sat down and stopped harassing people.

then i finished my final, so this semester is officially over. overall i'd say this was my worst semester, but i got a lot closer to nikki and started talking to jephry more. that's cool. i feel like i'm tapping into the uconn social network, very slowly. before you know it i'll be getting date raped at a drug infested fiesta. can't wait.

yay xanax!

tomata @ 2007-05-01T21:31:00

2007-05-02T01:31:45Z

I'VE GOT VICODIN, DO YOU WANNA COME OVER? I KNOW IT'S A LONG DRIVE FROM MALIBU... I GOT A POCKET FULL OF PILLS, AND NOT ONE LOVER, AND I'M FEELING SO BAD. AND SO GOOD. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO...

tomata @ 2007-05-01T17:59:00

2007-05-01T21:59:36Z

so today i was at the veilstone department store and saw two guys standing together so i asked one of them about it and he said, "two buff guys standing side by side. that's all. what? what's the problem?" i lol'd. then later this evening i battled chansey for an hour. the fucking bastard kept using softboiled. i swear to dog i was like that german kid, shaking my ds like a retarded baby.

oh, this was all in pokemon by the way. i still haven't started studying for my sociology final! college, lolol. i have more important things to do, like watch jay brannan's new video over and over and over and over and over and over...

tomata @ 2007-05-01T01:56:00

2007-05-01T05:56:58Z

"just remember this: hitler started out as a rock 'n' roll lead singer..."

spy in every building watching what you do...

2007-04-30T18:54:39Z

dxm krew: no i'm sure i'd just tell her the truth
dxm krew: i'm going to NYC to
dxm krew: have non-stop sex with a 44 year old belgian i'm
dxm krew: in love with
dxm krew: i wouldn't want to leave the hotel room
r u n t s rule: dude
r u n t s rule: when you do
r u n t s rule: you're gonna have to take lots of pics for me
dxm krew: i want to
dxm krew: take a picture of me with
dxm krew: cum all over my face
dxm krew: the first time some guy
r u n t s rule: thats hot
dxm krew: dumps on my face
dxm krew: and make it my myspace photo
r u n t s rule: you should make it your default user pic
r u n t s rule: haha
dxm krew: lolol
r u n t s rule: YESS
dxm krew: for gayzilla!
dxm krew: it will be great
dxm krew: and everyone i know will see it
dxm krew: and i'll be like
dxm krew: W/E
dxm krew: because i'll be so comfortable with my sexuality once i
dxm krew: own it
dxm krew: i don't own it right now
dxm krew: that's why i'm uncomfortable with it
dxm krew: i let society own it by telling me how i should or should not use it
dxm krew: and it is this constant conflict i have

tomata @ 2007-04-29T12:38:00

2007-04-29T16:38:18Z

gayzilla! needs a drummer

allsome day.

2007-04-29T03:50:27Z

today i shook my fat stomach at danny over the webcam, and he smiled.

the textbook definition of youtube.

2007-04-25T04:59:56Z

things that i'm supposed to find attractive i mostly just find Disturbing.

oh lawdy.

2007-04-25T02:45:15Z

i hate that my women's history in the united states textbook categorizes the black panther movement as a "black nationalist" movement. this term has so many negative connotations, especially in relation to the roles of women in the black nationalist movement who were often voiceless. panther females were not voiceless - just ask afeni shakur.

and although they began as supporters of the black nationalist cause that malcolm x submitted to, they eventually broke from it and found their own political ideologies. they were primarily a communist organization that emphasized the equality of the races. their insistance on protection of african american communities was due to the corrupt legal system of the 1960's, so the argument that they were black nationalists solely because they promoted self-protection is moot. how can an organization that submits to various political ideologies be lumped in with just the one?

they adopted the "black power" fist but "power to the people" was their key motto. not a specific group of people, but all people. they embraced their national identity, but also diversified by working with various feminist, communist and glbtq organizations. they viewed themselves as part of a greater liberation movement that would free all oppressed people from bondage. they called for an end to the third world, and sought the destruction of first world capitalism.

this black nationalism crap is part of the reason people are so ill informed about the panthers, and quick to dismiss them as the black equivalent of the kkk. malcolm-x, although great in his own right, called white people "white devils". huey newton publically spoke against this.

the whole notion of "black power" which associates itself with black nationalism has become dilluted and assumes that equality is in par with ethnic assimilation, which is not true. rights secure equality, not a lack of diversity. the panthers embraced both concepts when they envisioned their future, that is the real difference.

coo-coo

2007-04-25T01:21:13Z

while trying to find the correct definition of "pigeon holed", i came across the best page on urbandictionary.com.

pigeon holing - when you stretch your balls between your legs, and place them in your asshole and sit on them.
gay men practice the art of pigeon holing

pigeon holed - where a man/woman places bird seed in and around their anus and then lets pigeons peck the seed out.
bob: mate i went to nelsons column the other day and got pigeon holed.
dave: cotching mate

pigeon sex - where two birds meet and like have sex in dimly lit tree hole.
" i like your feathers....lets get back to my place and have pigeon sex."

tomata @ 2007-04-23T13:17:00

2007-04-23T17:18:28Z

this is my last week of classes before finals. how did that happen?

i'm back.

2007-04-22T17:23:17Z

my electricity and internet are back up, and the heat is working. now we just have to figure out what the fuck we're doing with the basement. things are back to normal, but everything feels new! this week was like moving, only everything is dirty and wet. here are some pictures of what the house looked like on monday.

looks like i won't be listening to records anytime soon.

the only thing that is ours in this photo is the green turtle sandbox cover.

our refrigerator was floating...

that is the river in the background. the parkinglot extends a bit further, my brother-in-law had the zoom on the camera on. but it is flooded over the banks, about 1/2 of the way across the parking lot.

tomata @ 2007-04-20T14:33:00

2007-04-20T18:40:38Z

today i will be spending all day at the library typing up essays, whipping up reading responses, and cruisin' on some dudes in the men's room.

i'm really only serious about that last part, though.

tomata @ 2007-04-19T12:48:00

2007-04-19T19:01:26Z

we spent another night in the howard johnsons, where i was forced to fake a 1 hour shower in order to masturbate. i'm slowly beginning to realize how important privacy is, and how little of it homeless people must have.

the clean-up process is underway. my dad came over this morning and began moving some of the shit from other people's yards. when i left they were busy cleaning out the basement. i wish i could be of more help, but i'm sort of stuck here at campus until 8:40pm. i need to talk to my professor about getting an extension on my sentence revisions and essay revision. if she says no i'll take the uniform C grade she gives all papers that weren't edited but would otherwise be A's and Choke her with it. get it? C is for Choke.

yesterday when i was at the kohl's shopping center with my mom for lunch, we passed the empty building where Odd Jobs used to be. someone graffitied "FUCK MOM" in big black letters on the front of the building. i laughed for like, an hour. i'm sure it was a 9 year old, but i'm hoping it was an anti-feminist. for some reason it is just funnier in that context.

now i have to spend the next 3 hours writing response papers...

because i don't feel like retyping it all...

2007-04-18T21:54:29Z

hey danny,

here is an update. the wires in our electric panel are completely damaged and the entire box has to go. last night my mom and i were at the howard johnson in riverside, which is a couple miles from my house. my brother-in-law drove us down to check on the power, which was cut because they were afraid the wet wires were going to create sparks and either perminently damage the entire system or burn down the house. the power remained on long enough to pump the basement, but once they cut the power it filled up an additional 9 inches. we had it down to 1, then it was back up to ten. when the electrician came this morning he couldn't do anything because of the height of the water. working with electricity while in 10 inches of water is apparently not a good thing!

i skippped my afternoon class today to help my mom figure things out. we went down stairs with garbage bags on our feet and moved the refrigerator away from the subpump, then we asked our neighbor olga if she would allow us to use her power, to get the water level down. she said yes, so we got the extention cord and it was working for a while, until the pump failed. we asked the electrician who is servicing everyone on our street to test the power of the extention cord, because we weren't sure if it was olga's power or the pump, and olga wasn't home to say if the extension cord was actually plugged in. it turns out it was the pump, so now we have no way of pumping out the basement, meaning we can't do anything electrical. we went to buy a new subpump but apparently every store in the tristate area is sold out. the flooding was bad all along the coast of connecticut and new jersey, and i believe new york.

so as things currently stand, we are without power, heat and warm water. the power won't be back until (hopefully) monday. we have to wait for the wires to dry before taking any more steps. we also have to call the fire department to help pump the basement, if we can't get a replacement subpump. the heat comes much later, we will probably be without a furnace/boiler for a couple weeks. luckily this cold spell is calming down by friday. we might head back up to my sister's this weekend. i'm going to say flat out that i need to not be annoyed while i work on the computer. i have too much catch up work to do for school to be sitting around worrying about my nieces.

i'm about to go to class right now, i have 20 minutes until it begins. i just wanted to check my email and see if you responded. i'll let you know when things change! sorry this email is so long. still thinking about you. a lot.

-adrian.</center>

highlights: no power, heat or cold water. stayed at a hotel last night. subpump broken, still water in basement. don't know where we are staying tonight, that all depends on the insurance inspector. the electrical box needs to be replaced, but we can't replace it until the water is drained. the electrician said we have to wait until monday, when the wires will hopefully dry and he can test to see if the system will even work anymore. so, no computer. our heat won't be on in...a very long time. we might end up back at my sister's this weekend. Um, that's all. oh, and i'll probably miss america's next top model. :(

flood update #55532310

2007-04-16T21:15:09Z

the water didn't come into the house, yet. we're still on flood watch through wednesday. tonight we're briefly relieved by snow. the river has dropped significantly, but it is still peeking over the banks. you can see it from my back yard. the pump in our basement is excellent and saved the main floor once, so i hope it can hold out for another couple of days. if the river hasn't come up to my street again, the basement should be almost completely drained at this point. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that this all turns out okay.

the yard looks like (and smells like) shit. it is gross. there is/are full paint cans, tires, garbage can lids, garbage, lawn furniture, etc. all over the street. the lawn is covered in a layer of gross river debris. one of our neighbors actually came up to my mom and was all, "that's my son-in-law's tire - he wants it back." like we're gonna take it or something. tell your son-in-law to come pick it up any time, please. and tell the rest of the neighbors that they can have their stuff back, too.

my nieces are screaming. i wish i could have some time to myself. seriously, just five minutes would be wonderful!!!!

more flood news.

2007-04-16T14:06:54Z

i slept on the floor in the living room. before i went to bed i watched part of this documentary on the documentary channel (go figure) about half japanese. what i saw of it was pretty good, but i couldn't stay up until 3:30am to watch it. i ended up falling asleep around that time, it took a couple benedryl to get me down. i slept for four hours. my nieces are driving me crazy because they don't pick up on emotions like adults. they're running around screaming, asking if i want to play. i'm exhausted, and all i want to do is curl up in my own bed. or scream. or cry.

in terms of the flood, my mom called tony marini (our neighbor) this morning. he could see from his window that the water had subsided to the point where we can get in the front door. he couldn't see the backyard but thinks it is still submerged. he said that he could fish in the parking lot behind the house, so i'm sure it is still under a decent amount of water. news reports that we've been able to pick on report that one man walked down our street in waist high waters. if he's six feet tall our main floor is definitely flooded, and we're fucked.

my mom is on the phone with the flood insurance company right now. the representative just said we can go see what state the house is in this afternoon. i'll probably cry when i see it. my mom just said something about there being no contents coverage. anything we've lost is gone. all of it. i could potentially come out of this with nothing, and that's terrifying. i hope the water didn't rise too high. i know for sure that i won't be online for weeks if we can move back in. that certainly won't be my mother's first priority. i'm going to be so lonely in the house.

i hope we can go visit chaz while we're down there. i've been thinking a lot about him. i hope he's okay.

i can't concentrate on anything for school, so i'll probably end up not doing anything for the next couple of weeks. i'll probably fail at least one course, and to be honest, i could care less. i've already called all of the professors that i could reach to let them know that i won't be in class this week. i'm too far from campus and train fare is too high.

i really want to talk to danny. i have a feeling he could make me feel a little bit better, even if i could just type at him. how did i become so dependent?

the storm washed it all away.

2007-04-16T01:09:07Z

i'm at my sister's right now. we had to evacuate my house because the river behind is flooded. we're an entire parking lot away from the river, but it has overflowed into our yard. all of the side streets are flooded as well, and the police are evacuating everyone. when we left the water was 3 steps away from the main floor of the house. i watched the downstairs refrigerator float across the basement on its back.

we had to board chaz, and i cried all the way home. we've never left him anywhere before. he's going to piss and vomit all night; all over that little kennel. he's going to have to sleep in it. the kennel is full of dogs, and he's probably terrified. he probably thinks we're not coming back for him. i'm starting to cry thinking about it.

i got my computer and external drive into my attic. i doubt that water will rise to that level, so i think it will be okay. i also bought up all of my old vhs tapes and all of the pictures that i could. i brought out all of the clothing i could in plastic bags and we waited for my brother-in-law to pick us up. i cried on and off for 20 some-odd exits. i'm afraid.

if i'm not online for a couple of weeks this is why. i just wanted to let you all know. if you want to contact me via e-mail please feel free to do so. or you can just comment here. my email is dxmkrew@aol.com. i'm going to miss you all, a lot.

i hope everything turns out okay. my niece is beautiful.

tomata @ 2007-04-15T17:43:00

2007-04-15T21:43:47Z

wow, this rain is awful. i can see the river overflowing into the parking lot behind my house. our basement is beginning to flood and the water that is gathering in our backyard is slowly creeping toward the house. the basketball hoop fell and i have no idea where the hell the top of the bird bath went. we might lose power if the winds pick up. we might have to evacuate, someone has already emailed my mother about the posibility. where the fuck are we going to go, and what are we going to do with chaz?

i ate my upper lip.

2007-04-15T19:21:19Z

dear lil kim, there is no "g" in nasty. perhaps you should use spell check.

2007-04-14T18:24:37Z

i like to consider my style of dance hyphy with a touch of break, a little of the WHAM! bop and about 1/4 slam dance. if you're not touching the floor and/or being reckless, you're not doing it right. get me drunk, throw me in a club and watch me get in about 50 fist fights because i'll constantly be hitting people.

thanks to the following tracks for turning my saturday morning into a soullll trainnnnnn:
justice - d.a.n.c.e
lo-fi-fnk - change channel
ich bin - body building
benny benassi - i love my sex
rauberhohle - my heart bleeps noisy beeps
glass candy - iko iko